This week has been a challenging one. We have many things balancing as I prepare for a lot of changes on both the #YBP and personal front. To be super vulnerable, I’m afraid that I’m disrupting a career path that could lead to success because I have silly dreams—dreams of being a full-time yoga teacher. My levels of doubt and uncertainty are so incredibly high that my body is reacting with tension and headaches.
Am I on the right path?
The combination of chronic migraines and (winter) depression feels like I’m not worthy of my dreams. Which is a very slippery slope. The doubt spiral caught up with me. Along with the endless unanswerable questioning thoughts, I can’t help but ask myself: what kind of yoga teacher am I to encourage a deeper connection with ourselves when I feel so utterly disconnected and out of touch?
The toll of pushing beyond my comfort zone feels high. I’m missing the human connection. I’m craving a clearer sense of purpose. Mostly, I need help. So, I recently reached out to my regular mental health physician, the woman who has gotten me through some of my most challenging times. The importance of having a reliable professional resource is entirely undervalued. Just knowing that I have an appointment on the books has sparked a tiny slice of hope for feeling better.
I will not give in.
I will persist.
I will reconnect to my own personal #selflove practices.
Remember the middle is messy and doesn’t always feel like we are making the right decisions. Seek help from your confidants and professionals. Slow down to tune in and listen to your intuition. Lastly, let go and trust that the Universe will take care of the how.
If you can relate in any way, be kind to yourself and take each day as it comes. That’s what I’m doing. Along with a group of phenomenal woman and incredibly generous sponsors, I’m hosting a yoga challenge over on Instagram that I welcome you to join. We’ll be spending the next seven days cultivating our self-love practices and sharing them with our wonderful community.
With love and compassion,
Paige